Hello

old Honey,
You know what, yesterday, one of my foreign teachers, who's a very old man, granpa of 9 kids,gave me a compliment,a very very big one. So,I'm happy, and keep smiling. If you could see me now, you would see a face like this,^口^……

Vacation

7-day National vacation's finally come. Most of the guys on my msn disappeared, except for my previous colleagues, who are still "fighting"in the front line for some so called exclusive news(actually, most of that is just routine news),as what I did in the past 4 years. I understand how torturing that is!! In a matter of fact,their tragedy makes me feel better, I'll never regret giving up that job again. Hmm, why am I so mean? Haha.

I stayed at home all day and watched "Ugly Betty"，enjoy the magic things happening to her, sad about the disasters she always faces,of cause, she always fixes them too.Thus, happiness just comes.

This vacation is nothing for me, because I'm on a long vacation and I don't know how long it's gonna be, as long as I want it to be, I think. At present, for the lazy Renee, work's gonna scary, whoops, can you believe this words coming out from a former workaholic?

Sometimes, I find myself can be happy, as long as I'm not so single-minded to my true feeling, that's not pretending too,it's just, you know, a shallow happiness, but it's still happiness right?

Am I cursed?

This travel hasn't fulfilled its goal. I wanted to pursue some lost happiness but found it's not available.

Beijing kept raining or cloudy,which made me much moodier.I never kept a rainyBeijing in my mind, that's not the "common" Beijing. Blue sky, dry air, that's typical. Everything's changed. Marriage, divorce, baby, betray, love,we experienced various lives.

Ten years have huge power. "Never grow old" is just a fairy tale. I walked in the Nanluogu lane one day, felt very tired and realized at once, nothing's gotta be like before. Admit it.

I lost my mobile phone, again, in the cinema. It's really not a happy journey.

Beautiful

Sounds like a bud blossoming from the tip of your tongue. French, I enjoy it.

No news

Old cute lady Renee:

Fortunately, today, I've spent smoothly again. Nothing special happened. You see, such a normal day actually is a textbook of our life.

I haven't gone to the training center for almost 2 weeks, so I find my English 2-step back. Yes, I measured it with my brain. And my tutor told me that my study is seriously behind the schedule, I should have finished at least 15 salon classes and 8 private classes, but in fact, I've only finished 6 salon classes and 7 private classes. Guess why?I'm really not a good student, even though when I was in class recently, I always read the novel "Long-legs-daddy" instead and wish I could be that sunny as Judy, the foundling. I'm daydreaming again!

I'm a little bit exciting these days for the coming travel. By September 8th, our dormmates will have known each other for 10 years, and I will go back to Beijing first for the gathering. Then, I'll wander around in some other cities where I haven't been before, alone, I must emphasize.

Do you believe in fate at your present time? I really do at my present time. A fortune teller once told me that I am a traveller of the world, can you tell me is that true? Sometimes, I always think something big is gonna happen to me this year, an eventful year, isn't it?

Now, I'm listening to some French songs such as Mademoiselle sung by Berry, and my ears enjoy it! ^^

Yes

Dear old me:

The guy on IMVU taught me two things:
1/Age is just a number.
2/Carpe diem.

Drum-like belly

I laid in the small bed of the beauty salon on this tiring summer afternoon, and the beautician made me totally relaxed and comfortable, I almost fell into sleep.

But, then,there was a very weird sound coming from some place.Ok, and I found it from my belly, and then I heard the second one, later, the third one, and fourth, fifth……and that sound didn't show any will to leave. By the way, if I have to describe what the sound's like, just imagine a strong wind wants to find a way out from a bellows.

Fine, what the hell is that? Did I do something wrong to you my belly? Are you not satisfied with the delicious food I feed you everyday? Why did you do that in public to embarrass me, especially in a very quiet place that everyone can hear a needle dropping on the floor.

So, as a punishment, tomorrow, I won't let you eat anything. I'm gonna carry out a hunger strike to torture you!!

Cheer up

Some friends online said to me ,"Hope you can overcome your anger and be happier in the new year." Hearing this, I realized that I'd changed a lot. I used to be easy-going,peaceful and lazy,but now I am bad-tempered and haggle over every ounce and the worst thing is I'm lazier than ever.

Such a damn. I hate that.

Dying

I wrote 4 reports today till almost 22:00. After finished, I thought I'm dying.

So hungry. And everytime when I am too hungry,I always go to the same place "xiao fei yang".Why?

I have the strong feeling that I can't do this job well forever. I can't do anything well. I'm too lazy and have the bad habits and character,all these factors make me like this now.

I saw the report on Yahoo,many message were from somebody who spoke on condition of anonymity.But why do our leaders always say what's the resourse's name and post? Yes,I know,I know that we must be in line with the law of journalism——we are seeking for the truth,and we must be of justice and authority.

Damned job,and damned me.

Busy

A little busyness that I can stand.

Older and older, I get exausted much easier. Can I study again? I always ask myself, am I diligent enough? Am I smart enough? Am I self-confident enough? NO. The answer's always "no".

Does this answer indicate that you don't have the ability and courage to finish the study abroad? I don't know, I'm tired of the present life, I hope a new one.

Change

The products from dangdang were sent to me this afternoon.7 books,including "A Book Devoted To My Daughter "by WangShuo,"A Story Of LALA's Promotion", "China Backpack","A Manual For Bodies",and the series of "Ghost Blows Out the Light".

Yes,I love books.But I'm afraid that I don't know how to read until now.Maybe Chinese students are good at reciting and repeating but can not use well what we learnt.

It's enough.I can't let my children encounter what I have experienced again.I hope he or she can be happy,in a good society and system.

Hi renee

It's your last chance to change your fate.If you want to live your dreaming life,please,hold on.

I know you can.Cheer up.